What will truly be the hardest days are yet to come.  My weight gain, in part, was a defense mechanism against future sexual assaults.  My rational brain knows that rape and sexual assault isn’t about sex, but rather about control, but my irrational brain tells me that if I’m undesirable, I’m safe.  This may be why it was so hard to lose three pounds.  And, this is why my therapist and I will have a lot of work to do as I start losing the weight.  I’m ready to take back control.

Oh my gosh!  This is chocolate heaven.  It’s simply divine.  You might be tempted to eat it….DON”T!  I’m a chocoholic, but there is no such thing as chocolate essential oil and I always try to use essential oils before I use fragrance oils.  Don’t get me wrong – I do use fragrance oils, but always look for ones that are phthalate free.  Before I even had a chance to look for a chocolate FO, I found cocoa vanilla oil on Edens Garden.  I knew I had to try it.  And, the amount of vanillin in the oil gives this bomb a nice chocolate brown color without having to use any colorants.

Here’s the thing though, the people who have wronged us, do so, and move on to their next conquests.  They’re not thinking about us anymore.  It doesn’t matter if they did it 35 years ago, 19 years ago, or last month.  Why? Because they don’t care about us.  If they did, they wouldn’t have wronged us in the first place.  Their time and energy aren’t spent on us, so why do we spend our time and energy on them? Thinking about them?  Crying? Dwelling on them and what they’ve done to us?